(via tingsatmyboy)
i am the person i am today because of the experiences i had stanning 1D in my twenties. those formative years were shaped by the the memories and connections i made, people i met on and offline, the learning and self discovery i endured while loving them, their music, their bond—so much of it was through those boys.
liam was integral to that entire journey and always will be. that chapter in a lot of our lives may or may not have closed, but it is something that will continue to be carried with us as we keep growing older together because there was just nothing else like them. everything about them was so special. despite everything.
i cherish so much about that time in my life, about his contributions to it, his legacy as an artist. it feels like such a massive waste. liam was immensely talented and i only wish he had gotten the help he needed in order for people to keep seeing that. he deserved to get better as much as the people he hurt deserved to speak up.
let this be a lesson to hold onto one another, check on people you love, get help if you know you need it. hold yourself accountable when you mess up. you can start over. you can become a better you. feel everything you need to feel, process this however you need—it’s all valid and warranted. this is very shocking and complicated. it is confusing and heartbreaking.
take care of yourselves.
regardless of anything else, so much of my late teens/early twenties were devoted to that band and I met so many people that I love so much and hold so incredibly dear to me to this day because of being in that fandom. countless memories were made at 1D shows and waiting for their albums to drop each fall and celebrating with everyone online. sending love to all of you, friends. life is short and fragile and weird. 🩷
i have no idea how to process this. it’s not unfathomable and it’s something i’ve thought about many times but i don’t actually know how to process it. what do you mean he was such an integral part of me growing up and he did some fucked up things in part bc of the fucked up environment he grew up in and now he’s DEAD and can’t do anything to try and make amends. what do u mean the boys now means harry louis
liamniall zayn. what do you mean he left behind a child less than 10 years old. what the fuck do you mean
(via softmenace)
he… like… I grew up with them, they were, and are, such a massive part of my life and the cause for so much of my happiness. they shaped me as a kid and now I just… that’s such a massive loss
Those 5 boys and the community around them held such a strong role in shaping me and knowing one of them is just… no more… I can’t explain this feeling.
(via louisisalarrie)
this feels so impossible to understand. hugging you all tight right now. i don’t have any actual words, just……. fuck.
(via harrygotthebee)
Istanbul, TR.
Louis “revealing a secret” behind the number 28 (25.07.2022)